Feels like there might be some light at the end of this tunnel after all. I’ve been not having as many dark and bad thoughts today. Today marks in fact the first day I’ve not broken down crying since last Thursday. The dark and gloomy mood has been replaced with something approaching nervous apprehension about the future – my default state of thinking, which is good.
There’s still some stuff that’s in the pipeline this week that could throw me off of my course, but I am cautiously optimistic that it’s going to be fine. Or if not fine, it’s going to at the very least be better than my overanalyzing, catastrophizing mind says it’s going to be.